Project Runway fan favorite poll was bullshit. I kinda can’t stand Christian, but he is growing on me. Chris should’ve won hands down, as I feel like he’s the most likable of the whole group. Kenzie and I had a discussion about who’d be more fun to hang out with, Chris or Christian, and she warmed me over to her Christian side. I guess I just hate the arrogant, Paris Hilton vibe that little twerp sends off.

I guess I was just raised to be more humble. I try not to toot my own horn (because I’m not that flexible), so when I see other people do it it kind of rubs me the wrong way. I mean, even if Stephen King or Joss Wheedon started running around going “I’m just the best there is” I’d be put off. When people like Christian or Mark Millar do it, it just pisses me off. Yes, they are talented, but not *that* talented. It just puts me off, and all I see is the ego, not the work.

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I decided I wanted to delete some music, since I have too much, and I find myself skipping over so much. It was harder than I thought, but I cut a lot of score/movie music that while interesting, does not jibe with casual listening. Most of my really embarrassing music is gone, but I did find a couple of singles that I liked a lot for about 6 months and then never wanted to hear again. “Camel Toe,” anyone?

Music right now is just some Aquabats, mc chris, the Evil Dead Musical, the Hives, some moderately embarrassing singles that fit the previous bill (”hey hey, you you, I don’t like…” ahem) and the Hairspray soundtrack. Wait, that’s embarrassing too. Crap. Must acquire new, more manly music. Will pop multiple collars to compensate.

*flashes back to picture found on 4chan of a guy with 4 popped collars. Gets insanely angry*

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Gifted #3 is beginning to pick up steam, and am about halfway through. I’m feeling more positive about the work, but there’s the part of me that’s worried about how hard it is to get out there, and how I feel like it’s good enough to get published, but I fear not getting the chance. Everything in my head lately is comics, and the novels have suffered for it. It sucks, but I feel like I have to go with whats drawing me (oh zing! as Travis would say) right now, and that’s the energy of working on the comic creators group at the store and working with Lee. I do, however, need to send out more queries for Shadows of the Past and stop thinking about if I’m good enough for prose fiction.

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Reading Charlie Huston’s latest, “Shotgun Rule,” which is not as good as the “Caught Stealing” trilogy. On deck next is JA Konrath’s “Whisky Sour.” I read his blog on writing for beginning published writers, and have been intrigued by the descriptions of his novels.

I need to get on GoodReads and start posting reviews and such. I get Jennifers and heathers and Hilary (from Antioch…those “in the know” understand the distinction), and I need to start inviting other people I know. Like my wife, for one. ;)

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Suddenly miss hanging out with Jen a lot. Haven’t seen her since the wedding, and she’s always so much fun to be with. I’d call her now, but it’s late. Must remember to call or text tomorrow am.

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Hey, this wasn’t shorter at all…